Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people. But you never forget them. And sometimes, it's those memories that give us the strength to go on.

          I've been thinking about death a lot lately, thanks to Kimmy. It's kind of bittersweet and of course when contemplating death, it eventually leads to contemplating life. Your life.

      I wonder what happens after you die? Do you just cease to be? That seems like a fairly bleak proposition. You get one chance to be happy and then its over. But what if you screw up? What if you choose wrong or what if circumstances are against you? what about those who die as children. Did they really miss their one and only shot? How sad a thought.
      What about heaven or hell? Is there really such a division? If so, who decides who goes where? God? But whose God? The christian God? The Muslim God? A pagan God? A God of no religion devised by man? Do we decide our own fates perhaps? Perhaps our own reflections determine our final resting place.
      I have always been fond of the idea of reincarnation. Living life  over and over again, having several attempts while trying to learn the cosmic lessons of the universe and all that. I don't know which of these are true. I don't know what happens once you die. So, if I do not know, and I have no way of finding out, aside from dying anyway. I might as well pick the one that seems happiest and run with it.

   Though regardless of what the afterlife holds, one should strive to live a full and happy life. Something I tend to neglect. One should not sit around and just do nothing, at least not all the time. One should seek out happiness and excitement and live life to the fullest and try to leave something behind. I look at my life and I wonder. If I died today what would I be leaving behind. No children. No legacy. No work or humanitarian accomplishments. All I would leave behind is a few memories for a few friends. And lets face it. Five years, Ten years, down the line. I doubt those memories will endure. I love my friends but time eats away all. I will slip away into nothingness and cease to be at all.